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Maybe the answer is 42 bc that's how old you have to before you can figure any of these things out. 

My sister is thinking of changing careers, which has resulted in a lot of talk about what I'm doing. I'm getting along just fine, but even I know my current situation won't last forever. And if I'm not going to stick my head in the sand about it, what am I going to do?

I can either stay in my same field somewhere else or do something drastically different. Do whatever it takes to possibly find a line of work that could make me 'happier.' 

Whatever that means. 

So, I've kinda decided to go halfway on that. I'm going to put drawing and costume-making aside to investigate some more about whatever dream jobs I can think of.

I...really don't know what I'm doing. I've spent so much time being the way I am, and feeling the way I do, that all changes to the routine are as frightening as they are exciting. But I'm slowly learning about putting myself out there, in many ways. I want to feel like I'm living more than surviving, and I have to figure out what 'living' means to me and hopefully not get stupid about it just because I want to take a chance flying near the sun.

Now that the kitten has mingled with the potted plants for about a month, and has become sufficiently bored of them after I blocked off the dirt with rocks, I’m moving them back to the empty room!

Heh, these plants have been in my bathtub for probably almost year, between hiding them from Kitty Nephew and a brand new Kitten from the drive-thru. But I think we’re ready to go back!

I kinda miss having a jungle in my bathroom, though. Look at my beautiful avocado plant! Remember when I sprouted that seed about two years ago? And freaked out about everything that happened to it? XD

I’m starting to get big plans for this room, since it is so empty and the Kitten is behaving around them. Maybe I can try growing things in this room; herbs and onions and succulents. I’ll have to cross-check what plants will do well here (and their relative toxicity to pets), but if I could get an indoor jungle going on in there…

Well, something of a dream will finally come true.

*Crossposted this little update from Tumblr, picture and all!*

 So...I'm a guest judge for the costume contest I won last year. ^_^()

I feel really excited and flattered and eager to do it, but I guess I also feel kinda nervous too. Last year, shortly after winning, I was approached by one of the judges about commission work. It took a series of emails to explain that making costumes was my hobby, I didn't major in art (or had any formal training in art,period), and that I didn't own a studio space. I feel like I shot myself in the foot by revealing all that, because some of the projects she was working on sounded really cool, but it was truth. I tre to look on the bright side of that moment; I was mistaken for a real artist. XD

And now, I wonder if I'm being mistaken for someone who's more of an expert in the area of costuming. Certainly, in the process of making the five major costumes I've done in adulthood, I've learned a thing or two about what goes into the process. But there are much more masterful cosplayers than me, who know way more about techniques and materials. 

On the other hand...its a small town event. Hardly anything to stress too much over. I'm sure the people I meet at the judges' panel and in the contest will be the real highlight rather than nuanced critiquing. 

I'm gonna have to request time off for this, but I'm sure with several months advance notice, it won't be so bad. I gotta live for more than just this job!